Because it is now November, I've already watched the first of my requisite 20,000 holiday viewings of Love, Actually. I really, really love that movie. For many reasons. But one of my very favorite things about it is the beginning, where it talks about love really being all around.
I found out something yesterday about an acquaintance and reacted BADLY. I ranted, I raved, I complained to Isaac, I cried, I was definitely unkind in my judgments and thoughts. See? This something was personal. While it didn't directly concern me, it came on the heels of feeling badly last week, physically, and was a similar situation. And left me feeling sorry for myself. And left me feeling smug and self righteous and angry. I felt horribly, showing friends a side of myself I don't love. And saying things I shouldn't have said.
At the beginning of Love, Actually, the voice over says something about how if you watch at an airport, it's always filled with hellos and goodbyes full of love. And on 9/11, you didn't hear about any last phone calls being ones of revenge or hatred, but ones about love. This situation from yesterday doesn't truly affect me. While I am still right about it all and while I have every reason to feel how I feel, it truly doesn't affect me. I do have love all around me. People who truly care about how I'm doing. And sitting there wondering why life isn't fair and some get the help that others don't is useless. Because it ultimately doesn't matter.
When this life is all said and done, I want to make my last call one of love. I want to be proud of the way I lived this life. I want to have the people that truly matter to me, surround me. And yesterday, I did not conduct myself in a way to be proud. Life is not fair. Things happen I have no control over, but that will still make me angry. These things happen. But I don't have to, as I did yesterday, make that last call one of hate. I should, instead, make it one of compassion and love. I need to be better and less reactionary. I need to learn. I have a long way to go, but I can do it. Because in the end, love is all that matters.
(love is all around)
7 clever comments:
I don't know that I've ever seen that.
(do they go to Ireland?)
Oh, my gosh. That made me laugh so hard.
Um...you wouldn't have. It's R and you would have to watch a very edited version. However, I have the tv version saved to tivo (from last year!) if you ever feel the need!
Love that movie!
Yeah. It's my go to holiday season special...
Why must you be so cryptic??
I saw the edited TV version and quite enjoyed it. It does have Mr. Firth in it, after all.
Sorry. I know how you hate it!
Indeed, it does. Being all cute and sexy and speaking Italian. Swoon.
Love that movie and for the same reason. I have never thought the same about airports since I saw it. I am always looking around at all the hellos and goodbyes.
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