There is very little in the way of absolute black and white in my life. The older I get, the more grey I find. I always assumed it would be the opposite, that the grey would fade and I would become more firm in what I know, that I would get further and further stuck in my ways of life. Fixed. However, the older I get the more I don't like the idea of absolutes, so I find myself very movable as time goes by; not easily swayed, really, but understanding of differences. Hmmm. Maybe that is one way that I'm stuck in my way; that I don't like absolutes.
I find it kind of funny that I'm encountering more and more people who are the complete opposite of that. That may be a product of the area I live, but it is something I've noticed. The more grey I get, I feel others get more black and white. Is it always this way? What does this mean for Sammy and raising him?
The "should dos" seem to be muddled in our house (as evidenced by Isaac commenting how Sammy has no clue what a gender role is!) and at times I find myself apologizing for them. Bad habit. Our family is, at times, unconventional in thinking and doing. I get that. People who know us get that. I don't know why I feel so apologetic about it. I shouldn't. I like being movable; seeing different things and creating a life out of it all.
Huh. You know what I'm finding as I go along? That perception is not everything. The people that we think are B&W don't consider themselves to be. And the ones we deem grey are often more unmoving than we think.
ReplyDeleteI think that I kind of move back and forth between the two. At times in my life when I am feeling insecure I seem to grab hold of the solidity of B&W. It makes me feel more grounded and safe.
But when I'm in a good place I allow more room for grey.
Flakey or human? Who knows?
wv: mangles. What real life does to our idealistic notion of it.
Good comment Trish. T-I don't see you as being a grey person at all. I think you are very b/w.
ReplyDeleteEbony and ivory is all I can think of right now. I do think they coexist in my brain though like piano keys.
ReplyDeleteNow I'll have that song stuck in my head all day. That and the theme song from Charlie's Angels...plus "Here's Johnny" and Oxy Clean commercials
It must be very noisy inside Diane's head. LOL
ReplyDeleteThe no gender role thing is what I have always admired about you and Isaac.
ReplyDeleteI thought this post was going to be about Michael Jackson.
ReplyDeleteThe older I get, the more I realize how little I know.
What's that saying? Children want justice, adults want mercy?
Susan - I think that's what I was trying to say, just very poorly. I know so little, so nothing seems absolute to me. The grey is more overwhelming as I get older simply for the fact that nothing is certain. Nothing is sure.
ReplyDeleteAs far as Michael Jackson...never really a fan. And...really? Not so surprising.
Hmmmm. Although I do still want justice. See? A little grey...
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